I'm posting in here because I don't know how much of how I'm feeling is down to a hormonal rage. But I am sick to death of where my life is and feeling like I am completely under appreciated and like I am the only fucking adult in my house.
I do consider my DH to be one of the good ones, he does pull weight with the kids, house work, shopping etc. But I feel like since I went part time after DS2 was born it's just slipping into I'm doing more and more because I'm home in the day more. I do also work up to 25 hours a week evenings in a police control room so it's not as if I'm just sitting on my arse chilling out all evening!!
I just feel like I am constantly carrying the mental load for the whole family and it's exhausting. I went mad the other day because there was no loo roll. It sounds trivial, but it's just one of many things if I don't do it, it doesn't get done. DH doesn't set his alarm to get the kids up in the morning on his days off. I keep telling him and telling him I'm feeling under appreciated and he says he'll do more but never does. I'm sick having to leave lists or nag for him to do things. I just want a day off and a break from my kids and my life and I told DH I needed that this week and I haven't had it at all. Whenever I say this he always bangs on about he never gets a break but he does. In an evening when the kids go to bed he gets hours on his own to watch telly and play Xbox. I get 2.5 hours a day alone when kids are at school and nursery and that time is spent getting chores done and getting ready for work.
I'm trying to change jobs so I work days and if that's they case he will have more days off in the week than me but I know he won't do half of what I do at home in that time.