Just wanted to share my recent experience with breastfeeding and the NHS.
So I had an ELCS a fortnight ago, fourth DC so fourth time EBFing. Different area/NHS trust to my other three DC and entirely different experience.
The night I was in hospital DC wouldn’t sleep, didn’t want to be put down and was pretty much glued to my breast. I didn’t mind, he was a few hours old and was probably scared. A midwife on the ward offered to feed him formula for me so I could get some rest
and another midwife regaled horror stories of her personal experience breastfeeding and stated “it isn’t all it’s cracked up to be”
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By ten days old DS had lost 11% from his birth weight so slightly over the 10% the NHS expects. We were needlessly sent to the local hospital by the midwife to check nothing was amiss. Spent nine hours there in total. The consultant asked me to offer DS a top up formula feed (!) which I declined. She basically started to claim my BM must not be enough hence why he had lost so much weight then insisted I pump 2oz so they could see DS eating it as if I’d been starving him until this point. The consultant said this as I was BFing DS beside a NHS ‘breast is best’ poster on the wall, ironic I know...
We had to wait forever for the one breast pump the ward had and during this time DS needed feeding so was upset. I was sitting with a screaming newborn not daring to feed him because I knew it would affect how much I could pump. Whilst waiting for the pump DP was told to “give him some cow&gate then you can go home”
. I pumped the 2oz in about 15 minutes and fed him it, he then wanted the breast for a further half an hour. They didn’t even record this and started to try and insist we stay over night- fuck that.
By day 12 DS was starting to gain again so all of that was for nothing (as we knew at the time) but the midwife still phoned a consultant to check whether DS was ok because he hadn’t suddenly gained 12oz in two days
. The consultant asked whether I had enough time to feed DS with three other DC around! Sure, just been casually starving him because I’m too caught up with my other kids...
Further to this I’ve had my MIL telling DP she thinks BFing is draining me and that we should consider at least mixed feeding. I don’t want to do that and have made it clear. I just feel so very undermined despite the fact DS is now gaining well and is very healthy.
If I were a FTM this experience would definitely have made me reconsider whether breastfeeding was the best thing to do. It’s just fortunate I’m an experienced mum that knows what I’m doing is fine and that DS is definitely getting all he needs. It has definitely dragged me down though and in the hospital made me feel a bit like a failure.
If the NHS wants BFing rates to increase they need to look at experiences like this and learn from it. Some of their staff need retraining.