To think “is this it?”

[Jellysandwiches]

I’ve just moved home to Dublin after 3 years in London following a breakup.

I didn’t necessarily want to leave but the thoughts of starting from scratch in London terrified me too and I was in a bad state emotionally following the breakup so I thought it was best to be around family.

I’m home 4 months now and have a great job that I really wanted but I can’t help thinking “is this it?” I really miss London but at the same time if I was there I would need to start from scratch and I haven’t all that many friends there so feel like I’d be homesick too.

Sorry, I’m sure this all sounds very conflicting (such is how I feel), but I wonder if anyone else has ever been in a similar state?

I've not been in the same situation but I can totally understand why you would feel that way especially if you didn't want to leave. Maybe just give it a bit more time.