My partner has recently broken up with me, citing being in a mentally unhappy place and needing to be alone (although what I’ve since heard he’s been doing with his evenings and weekends suggests otherwise but that is a different story)
Anyway, in the last few months of the relationship, he was constantly lying to me - about where he was, who he was with - a whole host of things.
Initially this made it somewhat easier on me because I know I couldn’t have continued to be with someone who kept taking advantage of the trust I had placed in him.
Now all of a sudden, the past fortnight, I have started blaming myself for the breakup - unpicking every little thing I may have done wrong to be the cause. Even though I know the breakup was ultimately the right thing because I couldn’t trust him any more, I am not sure where his 180 has come from and why I seem to be giving myself a hard time all of a sudden - perhaps because I’ve since heard that he’s been seeing a handful of other people (including “just friends” from work) in the 6 weeks or so since we’ve separated?
Basically I felt fairly okay at the start about it all but feel like I’m taking 10 steps back now.