Having some health issues atm. Not sure what is going on exactly but have had issues for years and years mainly effecting things like mobility - awful pain and swelling in joints and exhaustion which appear to be coming to a bit of a head atm. I have a severe limp atm and am carrying quite a bit of extra weight - probably have 3 ish stone I need to lose but struggling due to the pain when I move. Not sure what is causing it yet but blood tests are saying various things such as a high thyroid and low vit d as well as pointing to something auto immune. I have a toddler daughter and think I do pretty well considering.
Last week we had a big meet up with lots of my in laws. A few cousins, aunts, uncles, siblings, DC etc. All know a bit about what is going on but only one or two the full story due to differing levels of closeness. And got no end of comments along the lines of 'you poor thing' 'this must be devastating for you' 'I'm so horrified by this' 'you just look awful, though you cover it well (meaning makeup on the massively dark circles under my eyes)' as well as many stories about friends who have similar symptoms that generally don't have any happy endings. Fine when it was in response to seeing me creak to a standing position or attempting to run after the toddler, but a number of times these comments just suddenly came out of the blue. I'd be sat reading a book to my toddler and suddenly a great aunt (Not old, and experienced it from younger people too so not an age thing) pipes up with 'oh tiredness, you poor thing, I had a friend with the same issues, started at 30 years older than you are mind, the love is totally addicted to painkillers now of course....'
Aibu to have come away from it feeling so dispirited and like they must think I'm pathetic. Or am I Just being oversensitive because I'm in pain etc. We do this meet up regularly and I'm always the one who is struggling cos my asthma is playing up or I have tonsilitis or something else wrong. Tho it seems it might all have been part of the same wider issue. They all seem so damn healthy!
This is probably extremely identifying so I've name changed and if anyone is a family member I don't mean to offend and am not angry myself. Just blue.