I haven’t spoken to anyone in any meaningful sense for weeks now.
To look at to the outside world I am a ‘normal’ person. I work, I have good relations at work, I volunteer once a week, I am fit and active and go to the gym after work, do an adult ballet class once a week and I really do try to keep busy.
But I have no one in my life. My friends from previous jobs, school, college, have drifted away, either because the bonds of what we once had in common have gone or with some friends they are just immersed in baby world. On the odd occasions we do meet we have increasingly less to say to one another.
God, I don’t know what to do - I can’t imagine life going on like this until I retire, and then what the hell is my retirement going to be like when I struggle to get through two days at the weekend?