to be completely freaked out by being pregnant?

[LatoyaLondon]

Lots of miscarriages later, I'm finally pregnant and past the 12 week mark. I'm so excited to be a mum, however can't help but be freaked out by everything. I'm 15 weeks no and am starting to get a bump so maybe that's why it's starting to feel more real. They couldn't do the nuchal translucency because baby wouldn't stay still so I have to have a quad test next week and I'm stressed out beyond believe about the fact that it doesn't test for Edwards or Pataus. I'm an anxious mess, constantly worried, racing thoughts, don't sleep, scared I'm doing the wrong things, always on the verge of what feels like a panic attack.

I am so worried the baby will have something wrong with it even though I am young and should be low risk.

I feel like a mess and know it's probably because of the pain of miscarriage and not wanting to experience it again.

Am I being completely silly? How do I relax? Desperate to be a mum but I guess I don't really believe it's going to happen...

I'm so sorry for your losses I'm 12+4 with my 2nd and I have never worried as much in my life. Can't remember being like this with my 1st. I totally know how you feel I've been offered to see a mental health midwife because of how much I've been worrying have you mentioned it to your midwife? I can't stop I thought I'd stop after 12 week but had bit of bleeding a few hours after the 12 week scan so that set even more panic off I've had really bad backache too so that's been paranoing me it's never ending! I find the best thing that relaxes me is to talk to someone about your worries maybe oh if you have one or a friend/parent? X

I don't have any advice, but you reminded me of this lady, although not as extreme:

www.bbc.co.uk/news/stories-43979225

Very interesting read.

If things do get worse and your anxiety runs away with you, please do talk to a professional about what you're feeling.

@Lmj25 I find when I talk about it I get frustrated with whoever I'm talking to as they don't understand and seem to just tell me what I want to hear. Or don't know what to say (which is fine!). I just feel totally lost at the moment and can't believe this is actually happening to me. I want to enjoy my pregnancy, but I'm terrified and on edge, all the time...

Thank you @LooseyInTheSky x

The blood test will give you results for Edwards and Pataus though. My results came through v quickly. X

You're bound to feel stressed and anxious. Remind yourself it's what pretty much every pregnancy brings. Get some RL support even if it's just to talk and share your fears.

It's understandable to be worried. For me it got a lot more enjoyable once the 20 week scan was done. Hopefully it will be the same for you.

I now have a perfect baby despite all the early worry! Good luck. Do try to enjoy it, I miss being pregnant now!

I’ve lost 7 babies. I don’t think the worry ever goes. Honestly you’ll worry about one thing or another until you safely deliver a baby and they are in your arms. I panicked through every pregnancy- especially the successful ones. I think you just learn to cope with the worry more as the weeks go by. Trust that all will be well. There is not a lot else you can do. Hold to the statistics that there’s over a 99% chance that you’ll deliver a earthy baby at the end or at any rate a very high percentage. I’m sorry you’re so anxious. When I got sterilised 3 years ago my first thought was thank goodness I’ll never have to worry about a miscarriage again. Xx

Healthy not earthy.