I need some advice and ideas and I know this is totally a first world problem. NC because very outing.
My work means I dont have to be anywhere in particular. Its all on my computer. I was an expat kid and never settled anywhere. Ive always been rootless and kept on moving.
Now Im with my DP and I couldnt be happier. I love him and after many failed relationships, I think hes the one for me.
The problem is hes the opposite. Hes really rooted and we live in the town he grew up in. Although ive done my best to carve out a life for myself here, Im not being true to what I am and I feel stifled. His job means he needs to stay here. I wouldnt want to take him away from this place, his community means a lot to him.
I find that if I go too long without getting out, I start feeling depressed and trapped and teary.
I need to find some way of balancing my life so I can go away, but also continue with my life here.
Does anyone have any ideas of how I can do this? What should I do? Go off for a week every two months or something? Go somewhere random and take my computer? Something more structured? I just feel a bit aimless and unsure of what to do. I dont want it to feel like Im just checking out of my "real life" if you get me. DP is really supportive and tells me to do what I need to do, he doesnt want me to feel held back which is sweet of him.
I dont know. I need some ideas. Stories of people who have a similar situation? Or if you were in my shoes, what would you do?
I feel the wider world calling me but I dont know where to go or how to approach it.