To find eating well so hard?

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I need help not even going to NC.

Extremely concise version of my eating/health history:

• always been 'chubby', never slim or super active as a kid
• DM has weird food habits/obsessions over certain foods - won't eat anything with fat (healthy or not), nothing high calorie, but also can't cook well so we used to eat lots of frozen food as kids but very small portions, think 2 fish fingers and 1 potato waffle at 10 years old.
• I ended up bulimic as a teenager, also very anxious and depressed and used to secretly binge on chocolate and sweets late at night in my room, eating until I felt sick.
• now me and my Dsis are both the same. We both have sugar addiction and issues with food where we always clear our plates even if full and are both addicted to sugar.

Where I'm at now - overweight by about 3/4 stone. Extremely unhappy with the way I look. DP is also overweight by about the same and also has GERD and snores which would be greatly improved by losing weight.

I exercise a reasonable amount, always do my 10k steps and try to work out when I can around baby and work. I need to do a bit more to get into a routine though.

My real issue is food.
If I calorie count on MFP I end up eating the wrong things - lots of cereal bars and low calorie, high sugar, low nutrition foods.
I've tried Slimming World 3 times and really struggle to keep on plan, I just find it a bit dull. I find with both this and calorie counting I really hate myself if I 'go over' e.g. have over my calorie allowance or syns which I know is the old ED rearing it's ugly head.
I hate to admit it but since having my daughter less than a year ago I have twice relapsed into bulimic habits. Trying my best to keep them at bay though.

Are there any other eating plans or 'diets' that I could follow that could help me lose weight but not become obsessive over? It's just so hard. MIL has lost an incredible amount of weight on a high fat low carb vegetarian diet, maybe that?

Anything appreciated.

Brighton I feel great! More energetic and happier but I think that's down to not feeling constantly like I'm letting myself down. I've done two days now and that's about as long as a food overhaul (hate the word diet) had lasted for me so I'm really proud!

Yesterday was:
Cheese omelette for breakfast
Cashews, cheese, strawberries, tomatoes and greek yogurt with seeds for lunch
Veggie curry - celery, peas, tomatoes in tomato sauce and stock - with cauliflower rice and salad for dinner
Small glass of wine and a vodka and lime after as we were celebrating buying a house!
About 1400 cals total and 55g carbs. Feeling fab.

well done,op.

with an eating disorder stay well away from diet clubs ( business model relies on failure), foolish celebs and all the traps you identified - sugar shakes , smoothies, cereal bars, low fat, time clocks and other bad science.

actualy that applies without an eating disorder too!

Been doing LCHF since last Friday and have done 8 days now with no cheating. That's the longest I've ever gone! I've drank only water, aside from a few cans of diet coke yesterday while I was out.
Even had a takeaway tonight and just had grilled chicken kebab, without naan or pitta, with salad and mayo. I don't even miss the sweet stuff or the starchy carbs. Going to do a weigh in tomorrow morning but whatever the scales say I'm focusing on health and not weightloss. Feeling so positive and happy and in just a week cutting carbs has made my stomach so much flatter!