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I'll keep it short.

This year has been rough. I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and a whole host of issues. I've lost my friends because of how I behave when I'm ill and just today my boyfriend.

I live alone, I work from home most days. I have asked for counselling from the GP but it hasn't been arranged yet. I have no-one to talk to or confide in. No-one to have fun with. Happy people attract people so it's a vicious circle. I'm sad because I feel so alone and I'm alone because who wants to be near negative people.

Hi there, I'm sorry you're struggling it sounds really tough.

I hope you can get some counselling. I'm sorry that your friends and boyfriend haven't been there for you... Friends are meant to rally around someone who's having a hard time. I'm not put off by "negative" people - struggling doesn't mean that you're a negative person, just that you're struggling and need some extra support.

Feel free to talk on here. How are you doing today?

That sounds rough op.
What are you interested in? When I hit rock bottom I admitted to myself I’d always been interested in meditation( cringe cringe, or so I thought). I finally dragged myself down to the Buddhist centre, and learned an amazing skill, and some amazing people. It opened up a world for me , and showed me new things about myself ( some of which I almost liked!).
It turned out to be my thing.
Is there anything your a bit interested in that you could research or try?
Hope you find what you need. And we’re her to chat in the meantime.

You can refer yourself for counselling to save waiting for the GP. Have a look on google in your local area , some counselling you can get for free & some at low cost if you are on a low income . Please be gentle with yourself & give yourself some credit , you sound resilient to still be working while so down . Big hugs and good luck for the future xxx

So sorry to hear you are having such a tough time

I do hope the counselling is arranged soon for you. To be honest your friends and boyfriend don't sound great if they have ditched you because you are struggling - I would always want to support a friend having a difficult time.

You mention working from home and living alone which I guess can get lonely at times - is there anything you can do locally which allows you to meet others/get out of the house. Any form of exercise you might enjoy e.g. a zumba session once a week or something like aqua aerobics? Book club/craft type clubs?

I hope things look up for you soon

Thanks everyone. I really needed some supportive words today. I'm trying to get out more. It's slow going but hopefully in a few months I'll be a lot better off.

Sorry to hear you are having such an awful time. It takes a lot to open up like you have. That’s a very positive step towards helping yourself get better. When I was in similar shoes I started volunteering and it was fantastic at getting me out there and meeting new people. More importantly it made me understand that there are so many people with sad life stories that it helped me get my situation into a better perspective which really helped. I also made some new friends which has been great. It took some effort to get myself out there but I really can’t recommend it highly enough. It helped me feel so much better and put the spring back into my step.