I have three kids aged 10, 9 and 5. My eldest and youngest both have autism. My youngest is quite severe (non verbal) and only does a few hours in the morning at mainstream sch (awaiting a move to a Sen provision). It has been horrible (even the professionals going in have said the way my dc is treated is awful). I handle all paperwork, appointments and stuff in the house. My youngest isn’t allowed into school at the same time as other kids (sch don’t want potential complaints) so my parents take my older kids. My youngest has only just started sleeping through. I recently took a job 15-20 hours a week at home as I’ve spent years listening to my mother nag about how I’m wasting my degree (I had to stop working because of my eldest). Some days I feel so low like I’m walking through treacle. I’ve tried to say to my mum it’s hard having two kids with disabilities and she just mentions how I should be cooking more and cleaning more. I feel like I could run away (but I don’t want to leave my kids). But is it unreasonable to be exhausted? My husband has two evenings out a week and does his sport Saturday morning. So I’m doing my best to accomodate him. But it frustrates me that my mum doesn’t get how hard it is. Friends have deserted me. And the situation with the school has been incredibly emotionally draining (they’ve blocked people from going in to help). The youngest also has severe allergies so we have to be very careful with food along with a very restrictive diet. I don’t tend to take time away from the other kids as to be honest I feel so low and lacking in energy. I’m generally quite a quiet person. When I was younger if my opinion didn’t match my mother’s it was disregarded or wasn’t seen as important. So I’ve become very closed off and don’t tend to show my emotions a lot as I suppose I felt like I was punished because of them. In part I feel like a rubbish mum. That I’m not doing enough with my kids I just feel emotionally exhausted.