Need advice

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NC for this as I don't want to be identified. Not an AIBU but I need advice and reassurance.

I am currently undergoing tests as I have found a couple of lumps. I'm terrified as they are quite big and obviously I am thinking of cancer. I have managed to convince myself that I am going to die, as I don't think they treat/can cure multiple lumps, it is classed as terminal isn't it?

I have no idea how to tell my DH and DC that I might die. It's all my fault as I should have found them earlier, can't believe I didn't. I feel like I have wrecked our lives.

Depends what they are and where they are but many many lumps aren't cancer. I wouldn't be telling the DC anything. Tell DH what you've found and that you're getting them checked out.
I have multiple lumps. My boobs are lumpy! It's not cancer and I'm certainly not going to die. Don't panic.

Of course you aren't being unreasonable. Anyone who found lumps would be terrified too and would fear the worst.

Whatever happens it is not your fault. Diseases don't pick people because they deserve to have them.

Please try to take some deep breaths and remember that there are probably lots of other things that the lumps could be as well as cancer - some of those things are probably more likely than cancer. Even if it is cancer there are probably treatment options, but cross that bridge if you ever get to it.

Be kind to yourself

Sorry you are going through this. I can't tell you it's nothing because I don't know this.
However there is a chance it isn't cancer and if it is cancer then it doesn't mean it is terminal. You have done the right thing getting checked.
How long do you have to wait to hear something?
Have you got some support in RL?

I would tell your DH to get some support & then focus on the next step of diagnosis.

Obviously easier said than done but panicking isn’t helping you.