I've been in my job coming up for 3 months now and generally speaking it is ok. Working conditions are reasonably good, I like the other staff and get on with them. I'm on a really good wage for my job level and the area I live in, and the job is not seasonal, which is a big issue in my industry!
At the moment its just the AMOUNT of work I'm doing - Sometimes I'm leaving the house at 9:30am and not getting home till 11:30pm. Some days I don't get time to have a break. I'm on my feet for the vast majority of the time I'm here and have developed carpel tunnel and migraines since I started here - likely from a combination of the stress, heat, long hours, lack of sleep etc. I can't even wear the wrist support thingy (for the carpel tunnel) most of the time because its so restrictive I can't do my job. My whole body aches.
They're having staffing issues at the moment so a lot of it I'm doing pretty much on my own and its taking its toll on me mentally and physically.
I barely have the time or energy to eat or shower, let alone do anything fun. I'm trying to lose weight and I'm paying for a gym membership that I'm too knackered to use. Too tired to cook anything at all nutritious. Too tired to have sex with DP. I'm just exhausted. It pretty much takes me the whole of my 2 days off to recover from the week of work and then the cycle starts again.
However..
This is the best paid job I've ever had. I'm not earning huge amounts but because I keep my outgoings fairly low I have so much more disposable income now. For the first time ever in my life I'm able to buy lunch, a coffee, go out to dinner, etc without having to worry. My bills are sorted. I'm out of my overdraft. I'm actually able to making SAVINGS!! I can plan a nice holiday with DP, something we've never been able to do in all the years we've been together. I can buy nice gifts for my kids and family members' birthdays.
The thought of having to give all that up makes me so sad but honestly I don't know how much longer I can cope. I feel so pathetic because a lot of people work very hard and very long hours and I feel like I'm being so dramatic but I'm just really struggling. It's probably only going to get worse too because we haven't even entered our busy period for the year yet!
Aibu to think its worth it for the money? Or is it?