Backstory first so I don't drip feed;
DH left me in the beginning of February. It was all very sudden and surprising to me, he had been miserable for at least a year but did a bloody good job of hiding his feelings. I'm still all over the place emotionally about it all, especially as he runs hot and cold with me week by week.
When he first left, I was left having to deal with my feelings while looking after our Dd (3yo), working and I had a sports injury. He started having Dd overnight twice a week after 3 or 4 weeks. This is still what's happening.
So on to my issue. Today I accepted an invitation to a Hen do next month, which will be my first proper night out since all this.
But now a few hours later I've found out that some friends from abroad will be in the UK and want to meet up, the day after the Hen do. I could spend 2 nights with them which would be amazing as I haven't seen them in 5 years. But they are also going to spend 3 nights in a European City after coming to the UK and have invited me to join them.
I've got a bit swept up in the idea of this spontaneous few days, to have some time just for me after a shit couple of months but now I'm thinking of the practicalities. Firstly I'd have to renew my passport quickly.
Secondly even though I have money in my savings for this, I'm so unsure what's going to happen in the next year will I regret spending money on myself?
Thirdly, and this is my biggest worry, I don't know if I'd be able to go nearly a week without seeing DD. Should I even be thinking about going away for myself, I'm not young and carefree anymore. Even though Dd would be with her father, I still feel so much guilt about possibly leaving her.