Today we had to age our beloved 11 year old Labrador put down, I was at work but got the news by text as I’m not suppose to have my phone on me. I was devastated but I’m not a very emotional person so haven’t cried. Nearly everyone else in the house has been crying except me and my brother. Later in the evening my 10 year old DS asked if I actually cared because I hadn’t been crying. I had to explain to him that not everyone cries but it is okay to cry. Me and my mum were the closest to him and I’m the one that chose him in the pet shop and carried him home. It’s weird he’s not here and I’ve had all the memories running through my head all night causing me to not even focus on anything else. I still haven’t cried.... I’m not being unreasonable to not cry. I generally keep most of my feeling inside.