Changed my username...
I am (I have to reluctantly admit) suffering from post natal anxiety. Last week I did something really nuts. My baby (8 mo) was crying a lot and in trying to settle her I jiggled her a bit and then scared myself that it amounted to shaking (it really didn't, but hindsight it a wonderful thing. I basically had a panic attack). I rang 111, was directed to A&E and there my baby was found to be fine but the incident was referred to social services.
Honestly, she couldn't be more safe. We're a normal two parent family, both with professional jobs, with tons of support from local friends and from my parents. I'm just a bit stressed out at the moment and not handling it brilliantly emotionally.
My baby has been ill a lot in her first few months, in and out of hospital. She has bad eczema which means we get very little sleep as she is uncomfortable. I am breastfeeding and have carried on despite numerous issues but keep getting mastitis. On top of it all we are getting married soon. There's just a lot on my plate and I think it's tipped over to PND.
Tomorrow we have a home visit from the social worker. Does anyone know what I can expect from it?
I'm so scared. I have no experience of anything like this.