Struggling with anxiety about health

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I’m 39 with one toddler dd, I’m single. I had a full blood count to check I wasn’t anaemic anymore about 8 months ago, I wasn’t but my CRP and plasma viscosity were slightly raised. I had a repeat done a week or so ago (was meant to be sooner but I didn’t prioritise it) and it’s showed that CRP has gone down but viscosity still slightly raised at 1.78. I haven’t got any symptoms although I do get a bit of psoriasis on my face, but no other health conditions or medication. The gp sent me for a chest X-ray on Thursday last week, saying he wasn’t concerned but it was just to be thorough. For some reason I’ve been feeling incredibly anxious to the point of not sleeping and not being able to think about much else, also I know the bank holiday will delay me getting the result. This afternoon I found a small lump in my breast and I’ve completely broken down in panic. I’m so scared that I’m going to die and leave my dd without me. Part of me is trying to tell myself that this is irrational but it’s not working, I’m really not coping with the anxiety at all. Should I go back to the GP? I’m not sure whether I actually need treatment for the anxiety if nothing else. I just can’t stop thinking that I’m going to die and I don’t know what to do.

Didn't want to read and run! I've always been scared of dying, this got worse after I had my first child, when I was in the doctor's surgery almost every week with some complaint or another.

It's hard to know if a symptom is psychological or actual, but I'd definitely get that lump checked. More often than not it's fine (I had a breast lump that was just a milk duct). In the mean time, you can ask for counselling and medication for the health anxiety, I was put on sertraline and had cbt for mine.

Don't suffer on silence. There is help out there.

Thank you so much for replying. I’ll go back to my gp (I have to for the lump, anyway,) and tell them that my anxiety about it seems disproportionate considering nothing has actually been diagnosed. Or maybe that’s why, knowing that something is causing this inflammation but not knowing what. It could be something less bad than cancer, but it’s still definitely something

I was exactly the same. Found a lump, became obsessive. Googled constantly and diagnosed myself with alsorts! It was taking over everyday life, then came the panic attacks. The lump was nothing to worry about, but even after they told me, I was still thinking that they'd got it wrong. I kept thinking really negatively, to do with dying, leaving my children etc. I was put on an antidepressant that helps with OCD. It took a few weeks but I felt so much better.
I think when you find something like a lump, it's the norm to worry. The majority are nothing to worry about, so hopefully in your case, it will be the same for you. Anxiety is awful. Fingers crossed everything is fine and the anxiety soon passes for you x

Thank you Tricksy, I’m sorry you’ve suffered from anxiety too x