To question my reaction?

[houseproudme]

So me and my husband have been together for 13 years and have 5 children. We had a 'pregnancy scare' this month. My husband doesn't want anymore children and I thought I didn't u too this month. So after thinking I was pregnant, and after making plans in my head in case I was I hen come on my period today. I started bleeding today. I thought I was pregnant! And when I saw the blood Today I was disappointed, angry and upset and I don't understand why??? I should be fucking relieved but I'm not! I really dont understand it because It's not practical to have anymore children! Can any one shed some light on why I I feel so bloody disappointed!

I find that when you start planning for worse case scenario there is always a tinge of regret when it doesn't happen as you secretly know you could have dealt with it.

I think it's just your hormones going into overdrive.

I've got a much wanted dd and love being a mum but, growing up, I never wanted children. When I got together with dp I was still adamant that I didn't want children.

After a few years he persuaded me to try for a baby. I wasn't 100% sure. Even when I got pregnant I had my doubts. So when that first pregnancy ended in miscarriage I couldn't believe the strength of my reaction. I was devastated by it and had an overwhelming urge to get pregnant again straight away.

Sometimes our brains and our bodies don't communicate with each other!