My dh hasn't been well for over a year. It's got slowly worse and he FINALLY agreed to see doctors etc not long ago. We are pretty sure he has ankylosing spondylitis. It runs in his family although he is much worse.
He is constantly in pain and gets ridiculously tired after small things. He works full time in his own business and I am a sahm to 6 children who we also homeschool.
When he finishes work he goes to bed. In the weekends he can manage maybe a single thing - we could go to the shop for example but it would mean he was pretty much either lying down or sleeping the rest of the weekend.
Today I was gardening and he dug a hole for a plant - he had to go sit down straight after and has been sleeping since 7pm.
I am trying so hard to be supportive and just keep going through things - I appreciate that he goes to work and that he really is in pain.
But I'm feeling so alone and depressed about it sometimes I just feel like crying and sometimes I just feel angry at him. I feel like I am a terrible person