To think I just can't cope with life

[LEMtheoriginal]

I just can't. I am anxious about EVERYfuckingTHING. My DD'S cat was poorly. I advised her what to watch out for and she subsequently advised cat was eating and OK. I spent the whole day (dp's) birthday in an anxious state about the cat. It was fine almost a non issue but in my mind I missed something and the cat would die. This is ridiculous. But convinced dead cat and dd hating me. Our relationship is already strained.

I have exams this week and I'm convinced I will fail - I couldn't have possibly revised more. Dp says I'm overdoing it but I'm still convinced.

But that's this week. There is always something that convinces me I'm dying, a shit parent, pathetic, stupid and not a nice person.

Dr wants me back on meds. Dp says I'm zombie like and not me when I'm on them and they actually don't work.

I just don't think I'm compatible with being a functional adult.

Sorry to state the bleeding obvious but you are anxious :o
Your Dr has an opinion. Your dp has an opinion.
What do you think?

I feel like this op. The slightest change I can't cope with. Go back on the meds. I feel your pain. Everything is a catastrophe. However, thoughts does not mean that they are facts. I think CBT would also help you. Best of luck to you

Sorry to have a great big grin after such a serious post.

For the first time ever I'm experiencing anxiety on things that frankly seem ridiculous.

I am massively burnt out though and looking to change a lot this summer. Also just turned 40 and wondering if I'm peri meno.

Did you think the meds helped? Why did you go off them?

Well if being 'you' is feeling like you're not compatible with being a functional adult perhaps you should try medication again.

If the medication you were on makes you feel like a zombie perhaps you need to talk it over with your GP and see if there is something that does work for you and helps you feel more able to function.

It's not for your DP to make that decision. You sound as if you're incredibly unhappy and finding life very hard; it must awful to feel that anxious all the time.

Agree with pp, what do you think? What do you want to do?

Get some different meds and get some CBT

LEMtheoriginal, I’m going to sound very harsh here, but what do you expect posters to say that they haven’t said so many times before to you? We can’t help you long term, you need help for your doctor and you refuse to take it. There’s nothing strangers on the internet can say or do to make it better. I’m genuinely sorry you’re struggling again, but nothing will change until you accept the medical help offered to you for your anxiety and depression.

Do you have quiet time? Can you just walk somewhere off the beaten track, do some meditating or mindfulness somewhere out of the way. I think it would be very difficult to control anxiety if you don't get down time.

It's ok stealth the grin of hysteria is a look I champion

I'm scared of medication again. I can't remember my DD being a toddler because I was so off my face. I also have a responsible job that I cannot make mistakes in.

OK, sounds like bollocks and something that wouldn't work for genuinely anxious people, but bear with me.

Whatever you're stressed about, picture it vividly and then imagine it fading to black and white, getting quieter and receding into the distance. Try and do this every time the thought comes back into your head. Like I said, it sounds bollocks but it does work a bit

I need to find something that works. I genuinely don't think medication does work . My Dr said no meds before exams as they make you feel shit to start with but in all honesty I just want to stop being scared. It's so fucking exhausting.