Is anyone still awake? Anxiety through the roof

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I had another thread about getting very drunk last night and was so anxious. Was ok for the evening but it's bad again now.

Earlier, the panic was in case I'd been raped. Now I can't stop obsessing over what if I committed a crime and don't remember. What if I've ruined my life if I end up with a criminal record.

I'm trying to make myself believe this is a mental health anxiety issue and I've probably not committed a crime.

I think I underpaid the taxi driver and that's the other obsessional thought, if he wants to get revenge he obviously knows where I live.

I'm too afraid to put the light off and go to sleep. My anxiety is running away with me.

OP I would honestly either go out with a friend and go home with a friend in the future, that way if you can, you'll have someone to chat to so your mind doesn't go overboard.

I agree with the others, try and get some sleep if you can.

Do you work? Was wondering if it's worth trying to get into the Dr's tomorrow.

Soothing thoughts and deep breaths.

Have a Google of "big 'O' OCD" and see if it's what you are feeling - it's obsessive irrational thoughts and it's horrific. Being convinced you've contracted an unlikely disease or unknowingly committed a crime are classic symptoms. I used to suffer from it and it was awful. Thankfully mine went away for ages and hadn't resurfaced until a minor episode earlier this year, but once I was able to see it for what it was it got me through. Big hugs. It's miserable and scary.

Sorry, 'pure O'

Hi OP

I just wanted to let you know that I was diagnosed with OCD years ago and (among others) I had the EXACT same thing you are currently experiencing. It's called false memory OCD (some people don't like to segment OCD into different types but I am doing it here for ease of understanding) and it's when you convince yourself you have done something terrible, literally re-imagining events in your head to fit in with your theory that you have been harmed/harmed others. I would suggest going to your GP and they will hopefully refer you for Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, however this can take some time so I went for private Therapy and it helps a huge amount!

OP how did you get on yesterday, was thinking about you and hoping you were ok.

Hi op when you're feeling better today call the gp and book an apt. Get them to refer you to counselling and therapy, you'll benefit from it. You need to learn skills to manage your negative obsessional thoughts.

As a self help, cut out or limit alcohol and caffeine, these two stimulants are making your condition worse. Getting drunk isn't helping you at all as it's taking away your control over situations. I think that's what you're scared of, losing control.

Pure O OCD almost certainly.
I've had a couple of episodes relating to blacking out drunk and it's horrible. I don't drink any more!