It's making me ill. I've not been sleeping for months, and have all the signs of a mental breakdown heading my way - anxiety attacks, withdrawal from any social activity, feeling like I just want to end it, crying every day.
It's the job itself that is the problem, it's well paid, the people I work with are nice, but the stress is enormous. There is no way of alleviating the stress. I've spoken to my boss who thinks I'm doing a great job and who is happy for me to work from home, reduce hours just to keep me. But it'll still make me ill.
I had a year off work as a SAHM before taking on this job. Juggling kids, full time work and home is just too much in a job I'm finding too hard. No amount of training will help my personality is just not suited to it. There is loads of conflict to manage and I struggle with that.
DH massively supportive. He doesn't earn that well but we have enough in savings for me not to work again for 6 months by which time last DC will be at school and I can then find something to at least cover the mortgage and childcare costs.
Feel like I'm having a massive crisis of confidence - late 40s - and having worked in high powered well paid jobs for years feel a complete failure.
Life's too short not to reign I think.
More of WWYD than AIBU but need some perspective and views to help make me jump.