I am struggling at the moment, my head is all over the place and don't know what to do and how to go about it.
There was an incident with my DH that happened just over a month ago that made me feel awful and scared. I privately spoke to Women's Aid, who said I should call the police and talk to them, even if just for advice.
Did this and had a police officer come over whilst I was on my own and it made me realise that I cannot put up with this kind of behaviour from my DH and that I can't let our children see this type of behaviour towards me.
I did not want to give an official statement as this would have led to DH being arrested and I wouldn't have been safe.
Nobody knows I have done this and I feel so anxious and worried I'm doing the wrong thing. He has since been lovely and is trying to constantly ask if I want to be with him as he feels I'm distant and don't want him as much as I used to. It's hard, my emotions are all over the place. He is asking for me to tell him if I want to be with him or not, and I genuinely don't know what to say.
I have found a flat to move into, it's much smaller and will involve leaving him in the house we have a mortgage on, everything 
I don't know how to actually leave and struggling with the thought.
I need some advice, how do you leave? What do I do? Every time I have the words in my head I freeze and just can't say it. I am worried about the fallout, the fact that I have no support, practical aspects of being on my own, etc.
I am not sure what I need from this post, mostly venting and asking for advice on how I should go about it.
Thank you for reading, grateful for any advice or experiences