I’ve never been a massive fan of birthdays especially after I hit 25 I get a bit depressed around this time each year so prefer just to ignore it. Next week I’m turning 29 and my mum, dad, brother and sister in law want to throw me some sort of celebration but I’m really not up for it, firstly knowing this is my last birthday before I hit 30 just makes me so sad, also this year has been one of the worst of my life. My boyfriend cheated on me with one of my best friends and we split up and I lost the baby I was carrying 3 weeks later at 21 weeks, I isolated myself from all off my friends because they were still in contact with the one my boyfriend cheated on me with so I didn’t want anything to do with them but am now totally friendless, I thought I had my whole life mapped out but now it’s all gone so celebrating is really the last thing I want to do.