To not want to kill self but

[Mrsfloss]

To be quite happy if I got ran over tomorrow.

Everything a struggle, no extra money, fear of getting sacked. Massively overweight and unfit. Eat absolute rubbish and can’t stop.

Life just feels a struggle. Our mortgage won’t be paid off till 60. 42 now.

Is this really it? No holidays, no spare cash

I know how you feel, I feel the same way.
I don't want to hurt myself but I often wake up in the morning wishing I hadn't.
I feel very trapped in my situation and can't get out of it.
Sorry for you op, I hope things improve for you

Thanks guys