To think I'll never eat normally again?

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So desperately lost & no longer know what to do

I've had a food addiction for as long as I can remember but last year after the birth of my son, I got it under control.

Well, for the last 4 months I've "gone on a diet" or binged on food to extreme.

I am incapable of inbetween.

I know I'm not hungry but the thought of food just screams loudly....I'm like a drug addict, I have to get the food like NOW.

Everyday I wake up, I tell myself, today is the day il get it back under control & then il smell trigger foods, hear packets being rustled, see food on the tv & boom, that voice is louder than the day before.

It's so out of control it's making me gain weight at an excessive rate & also incredibly ill.

Please, does anyone have any advice?? Il try anything.

I'm desperate

Not doing great, keep giving myself stupid excuses to eat, then regret it when I feel ill & say I won't do it again.

It's a never ending cycle I can't seem to break away from.

I've started eating in secret as I've a young son and don't want him picking up my bad habits.

My Dsis has come to stay with us for a while so my diet will go south with all the stuff she's brought with her

Try reading www.eatlikeanormalperson.com it's a website with advice for beating food addiction and binge eating and trying to get back to eating normally like a child does, it's helped me a lot.

Sorry I’ve not yet read tft, but hopefully I can offer a couple of tips.

1. Write a meal plan and shopping list around the meal plan, don’t buy your trigger snacks. If they are not in the house, you can’t eat them.

1. Buy in some guilt free snacks, you don’t have to have carrot sticks, although they are a great choice. Make sure you have apples or something like (low fat, quick) to grab when you do feel peckish.

1. Make sure you are drinking enough, people do tend to overeat when they are in fact thirsty, also a glass of water before eating does lead to a feeling of fullness.

OP, I really feel for you, I remember those feelings.
I do feel it’s more than ‘just control your eating’ ; there are reasons you are eating more than is comfortable and those need to be addressed.
Food isn’t addictive in itself but it can be used as an emotional crutch.
Having said that, I do believe sugar has addictive qualities so what you do eat, try and make sure it is as sugar-free as possible as your body can eat more of sugary foods than others.

I definitely think you need specialist input, maybe psychological, so you can recognised why it's such a problem. It must be despairing as it sounds like it has control of you.

Have you looked at the support services Beat offers?

I don't know the answer but I can empathise.