Just to say that this is thread is in no way a 'gloat' or boast about my DD - more about how I am feeling about myself.
My DD got a glowing report today at school, and I am very proud of how, according to the teacher, 'kind, thoughtful, delightful and hardworking' she is. I always encourage and support her as best that I can, and feel I must be doing something right if she is blossoming as much as this.
Having said this, how her life is going shouldn't be affecting or have any bearing on my own self-esteem or worth, but for some reason her growth and development has highlighted what I feel that I am lacking at the moment. I have been unemployed since AUgust last year, have lost my DB to cancer last year too, and have been trying to get over various health issues including a head injury and post concussion sydrome/drug indued movement disorder for the past few years, all of which have had massive impacts on my life, confidence and self-esteem.
My priority of course is my DD's happiness, and she is and always will be, but seeing her school report today made me feel wistful for my past successes and happier times, and angry at myself for even thinking this should affect me in this way.
Logic is telling me to be proud and happy of her achievements despite my struggles. AIBU to think the opposite at the moment?