So I have a daughter who’s 16 sen who’s really done well this year and on track to get 5+ grades in her GCSEs ( to us dinosaurs that’s all c’s and b’s) after some real rough times where I’ve had to get help from ss and police. She’s blossomed onto a young woman I would never have dreamed could exist 2 years ago when she was threatening to kill me because I’d taken her phone away. I have also inherited an 18 yr old boy who’s father had a mental breakdown and tried to kill him, said boy has eating disorder and anxiety, he qualifies for a council property but I genuinely believe he benefits from family life and is so welcome in my home and is a gentle and kind young man . I have my youngest ds who is 9 months and is a 4am riser, happy and gorgeous but a real challenge to ‘keep alive’ since he’s so adventurous and hyper. Dp is a lovely gentle soul but not much help around the home as he seems to miss the point of domestic tasks and has no babydar so can sleep through ds at any time of the day. I have a modest but clean, organised home and we eat well. I think I’m a good parent, however on average twice a week I drink about a bottle of wine( over several hours always hear the baby) and smoke a joint and either listen to an album or watch a film. This usually can only occur after about 11pm when everyone else is asleep and occasionally I will run a bath and lay in it sipping wine by candles ( sometimes getting a bit cold by the time I’m out) have been known to attack a packet of Doritos with melted cheese then drag ds to the health club the next day to demolish guilt. I always feel guilty for this sort of indulgence should I?