AIBU to ask for help and advice?

[smurfit]

I'm about to lose my job and could really use a bit of a handhold. I don't even know if this is the place to post this.

I don't really know where to start exactly but essentially, I'm aware my performance hasn't been up to par. I know I'm capable of more but I just... don't and I don't really know why.

Mid next week I have a meeting and from there I'm on probation to get my act together. I could really use some advice on how to actually achieve this as well as how to hold it together during next weeks meeting (and the days until then).

I have an appointment with a doctor early next week to hopefully get a referral onto mental health. I don't want to talk to my family about it but I did tell Mum that things were falling apart in order to find out about the doctor she'd recommended in the past.

It's not unexpected at all but it is very overwhelming.

Try to get really specific advice in your meeting about what you need to do to improve

Do you like your job? Maybe you shld look for something else if you don't.

I'm trying really hard to look at it as a positive to try and help me improve rather than them giving up on me... but I've seen it a lot, once they decide to get rid of someone, it's usually a done deal. So I spent most of my morning at work trying not to cry.

Generally yes, I like my job. There aren't any other similar opportunities for companies I'd be happy with in my area so I'd need to move a fairly significant distance away from where I am now. Which in itself is a challenge and an opportunity but I'd rather make this situation work for at least another couple of years.

Ok so try to get specific achievable objectives from the meeting, what do you actually have to do differently to succeed in the role?

Also start looking for a new job as back up.

Good advice. Ty. I'm a bit all over the place and generally really disappointed in myself.

Male sure they set measurable ways for you to improve

Not just “be better” but “improve x by doing y, to be evidenced by z”. So for example in my job it might be “reduce errors to no more than 5 per 1000 calls by asking the customer to repeat their card details twice and then reading them back to then. To be checked in increased call quality and in error reports”. (Fictional example).