To think I might be gay

[hareandthemoon]

Growing up I fancied girls and boys. I married my first boyfriend (he was quite a bit older than me) because I felt like no one else would ask me. I was just grateful someone had.

I get quite intense crushes for women and its hard to know if I just admire them or fancy them. I think it's the latter.

I am very feminine... I know its stupid but I think I still think of Gay women as being 'butch'.

Does it matter? I know it shouldn't matter but somehow it does to me, I want to look in the mirror and be certain and confident of who I am.

You sound really unhappy op. Whatever your sexuality your current dp is clearly not right for you.

I left my husband to come out as gay. Best thing I ever did, I’m now happily engaged to another woman, we are both very feminine.

I realised I had never been attracted to men and had just got caught up in making a home and life like everyone else does. I didn’t know I was gay all that time either as I hadn’t even considered it. Looking back there were lots of clues and once I allowed myself to notice women I noticed them all the time!

I know it's not easy to leave someone but what is it that's stopping you? Maybe we could offer some advice or help?