Hi everyone. I already know that I am being really unreasonable after you've read this! I know this is probably a random thread but just lately this has really started to go round and round in my head about just how addictive technology has become.
Of course we probably know, because we are addicted to it too! Admittedly, I am. I have been told so many times I am addicted to my phone by my OH and I always deny it but why am I denying it? It's the truth. Every waking moment, I am checking Instagram and Daily Mail. Instead I should be getting up, making a coffee and start the chores while my LO eats his breakfast. After I come out the shower, I am checking my phone while sitting down on the bed in my wet towel! What the F am I even looking at?! I think I need to delete Instagram as well at this rate. I use it for food inspirations usually, I have nobody I know personally on there but the addiction is still there.
I have not got Facebook (the best things I have ever deleted simply cos I was REALLY addicted to it and thought that was the problem), but I still have the urge to check my phone, reloading emails, WhatsApp, wondering who will be messaging me just to have a decent convo but the matter of fact is, nobody bothers about me and probably talk to me because it is easy to do so on WhatsApp. If my OH asks something, I whip my phone out and Google it... but whatever it is, really is NOT that important. It's just another excuse to go on my damn phone 
I just feel huge regret that instead of doing majority of my uni work and getting amazing rewards for it (brilliant grades for example!), and spending extra time with my little boy and enjoying life and adventures but instead, I just go straight in my bed when my LO goes to sleep and go on my phone.. That's the first thing I do, but the washing up and cleaning and my work needs doing! I just go on Netflix sometimes or just simply Googling anything to read. What has it got to offer to us? I just don't understand the concept of it and why I am doing it to myself and my family.
Push has come to shove because I've really had enough of it. I have had enough of doing it to myself and wasting the time we have because life just goes by so quickly. I have a family and a little one and I beat myself up and just want to hate myself for going on my phone when I should have been focusing my extra special time with him! I do spend time with him, don't get me wrong... Just not enough! I could do better and I need to be a better Mum.
It will be evening soon when he comes home and the first thing I will be doing is putting my phone away, play with LO, cook dinner and then do my revision and assignments for the rest of the evening and then go bed to SLEEP. I am going to find some good books to read as well and start reading again in the evening as well to wind down and catch up on my programmes on my phone when I don't have any commitments. I am going to reset my phone back to basic after backing up my photos and videos which I am currently doing, and start from scratch.
If someone urgently needs me that much, they can simply call me. I can't do this anymore. I have time to change it, and now it is time that I do! When I am at work, my phone will be staying in my locker.
My work probably slacks because I am going on it during my shift.. how pathetic is that. I just feel ridiculous. I am 26 and acting like a young, petulant child. No more now!