Losing it!

[Amie021]

Sometimes, just sometimes I really wish I had the courage/backbone to just simply lose it. I am mild-mannered by nature, the exception being if OH and I have steaming row otherwise I never rant at anyone else. Last week alone to name a few -

To the interviewer last month: stuff your crappy job and crappy wage.
To the rude M&S assistant: don't wave vaguely at me as to where you've now moved the tights to.

Carpetright for trying to fob me off re 'reasonable wear' on my carpet. Countless 'on hold' options on the telephone.

Scottish Power customer service.
My mother for being a sarcastic bitch.
Pee drops on the bathroom floor. (Thanks OH)

Sometimes I would just love to lose control and say what I really want to say/get off my chest. Anyone else feel the same way? It would be behaving very badly and so not me. My best friend is very mild mannered and I've never heard her swear but she told me quite proudly she'd told someone in our local Lidl car park to fuck off! I actually felt proud of her and laughed like a drain. Is that bad?

Hahahahaha!

Well, first things first, in 95% of situations, yelling damages you and stresses the other person out and makes the whole situation harder to deal with. So your way is actually better!

However, it can be a really good thing to let go. I can remember my exP ringing me and being a PITA over the sale of our joint house. I was on the roof garden at work, which I thought was relatively private, and I ended up yelling "YOU FUCKING, FUCKING, FUCKING BASTARD!" down the phone. And then a whole lot of other stuff just came out. When I walked back in the office, I realised that they had opened the windows and heard the whole thing! I got quite a few high fives from the ladies in my office, one of whom said "I really wish I'd done that to my ex". It DID actually feel better. He had really deserved it at the time, though.

Dh and I often talk about what we would do/say if we had a wind back button so wouldn't have to face the repurcussions. It's totally normal to not say exactly what you're actually thinking.

This morning, listening to the most boring woman rabbit on about her new car (school mum) it would have been 'Aha, that's great! Now whilst I would love to stand here for another five minutes listening to you justifying your pointless existence on the basis of your (exaggerated) wealth, I actually have a life! So I'll be going now you ridiculous old bag'.