I'm sick of feeling anxious and overthinking all the bloody time

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I've been to the GP, I've had CBT, it hasn't worked. I dont want tablets, I dont want to go down that road. I paid for counselling but could only afford 5 sessions, I really found it helped but without it I'm back to square one. I worry about my health, about something happening to me, about loneliness, emptiness, feeling so utterly vulnerable to what could happen, I worry about the future, about my kids and where everything's going.

I've got no family apart from dh and the kids, there's no spare money and no inheritances for my kids futures. We both work but its not well paid.

I know its daft, if you met me you'd never know.

I just want to be more reasonable, more grown up and stop feeling like a frightened child all the time. Its exhausting.

I know IABU but I can't help it, I can't switch my brain off and give myself peace. And I know life is so short, I dont want to spend it having a knot in my stomach.

Would someone shake me and tell me to stop being so bloody stupid, please.

Sorry to see your post. Please don’t think that medication is a complete No. My Dr was very honest with me that meds could only do 50% and the other was down to me. That included CBT and exercise too. I forced myself out of the house, started with a short walk round the estate, then building up a bit more every week. CBT helped hugely and I still re-visit my modules now, despite being 6 months med free. Beta Blockers work well ‘ in the moment’ but aren’t a long term fix. Hope this helps

thanks so much for all answers here, much to think about

to answer some of the questions, I'm 50's, dont drink and I've felt like this since mum died..I've always worried but now I feel so rootless and vulnerable to the bad things in life happening to me.

dont know what it is, a mixture of lots of things I think.

I'm just tired of it, really tired of it.