I suffered from ptsd following a horribly traumatic birth of my son during which I nearly died. I knew I wasn’t coping well with what happened and mentioned it to my hv very early on. She basically brushed it off and said it was normal to feel a bit down after your baby was born so I put it down to that.
6 weeks later I was almost suicidal, having horrible intrusive thoughts, flashbacks, panic attacks and basically couldn’t function at all. Went to the gp who told me I had postnatal depression. Prescribed me some antidepressants and sent me on my way.
I had a long, hard think about taking the antidepressants. I was tempted as I just couldn’t face feeling that way anymore but ultimately realised that I wasn’t depressed, I was struggling with what had happened to me and I needed help, not antidepressants. That’s not a dig at anyone taking them, I just knew they weren’t for me and wouldn’t solve any of my problems long term.
I found a talking therapies service through my local council and self referred. I had an initial call with a therapist who confirmed it sounded like ptsd and referred me for 12 sessions of cbt. I was fast tracked as I was a new Mum and had my first session a few weeks later.
I had my last session a couple of weeks ago and I can honestly say it’s the best thing I have ever done. I had a wonderful therapist and feel I am fully recovered. I’ve got my life back which I never thought could be possible again.
I’d suggest going to the gp, and telling them you think you have ptsd and hopefully they can refer you to someone that can help. It’s an awful, awful thing to go through but I have firsthand experience and know you can make a full recovery from this. Stay strong xx