Just that really. I've name changed as I'm not proud of this.
I was sexually abused for a prolonged period as a child. Thankfully I've turned
My life around and have a great job, a lovely family and very few negative lasting effects from my childhood.
Except smear tests! I'm due my 3rd smear test next month. The previous 2 have been very difficult, I get very anxious and sometimes have flashbacks. Because I'm tense it makes the job hard for the nurse and both times I've cried. It's been painful physically and emotionally.
Would it be crazy to have a big glass of wine to try and relax? Or does anyone else have any good tips for surviving smear tests?