To feel resentful?

[Helendee]

When I was seven years old I was grabbed by a stranger and made to touch him sexually. I was on my back way to school after going home for lunch and had to walk down a quiet lane to get there.
This guy jumped out on me and forced my hands to touch him. I managed to kick him and ran to school crying and was taken to see the headmaster but I was very naive and didn't know how to explain what had happened.
I was then sent back to my class and had to stand at the teacher's desk and again relate what had happened.
A letter was sent home to my parents who took one look at it and said words to the effect of " Try to walk with other children" and it was never mentioned again.
My parents are long gone and I so I can't confront them about it but recently it has been upsetting me as to why no one seemed to care.
I feel wicked for feeling this way.

Thanks for reading!

Oh my god how horrible. It's moody true!!!!

Bloody true I mean!

Why would it be a wank thread? It isn't graphic or revealing details.
So sorry to hear this OP. Have you ever managed to talk to anyone about this?

trinity

I've seen you on some threads and you're quite nasty.

OP, you need counselling - please speak with someone to see if this can be arranged to help you move on

You are not wicked. You deserved help,protection and understanding. You didn't get any of that. You didn't get any validation or acknowledgement and probably felt and still feel like you didn't matter.
It tends to get worse as you age and understand the full ramifications of it and realise that what you'd probably do for a stranger , the ones that were supposed to care and protect you didn't do for you.

This is why children shouldn't be allowed to walk home from school alone at a young age.

Thank you guys.

I am mortified by trinity's suggestion. My own daughter was also sexually assaulted as a teenager and there is no way I would make up anything so horrible.
I'm not in a good place financially for counselling at the moment.

Trinity a quick search shows that the op is a regular poster. 🙄

Op, it sounds like at the time the people you told didn’t realise the severity of it. :(

Can you speak to your GP for a referral?

@TrinitySquirrel
Reported you for being nasty and to be frank, weird if the first thought that comes to mind is 'wank worthy thread' instead of genuine concern

Thank you for the flowers.

Rebel, that's how I feel, I feel sad for the little girl that I was. I was so scared of men for a long time after that and used to cross the road to avoid one.

I feel it's such a long time ago , this was 1972, a counsellor might think I'm wasting their time.

They really won't OP, honestly

Sadly i remember growing up in the 1960s/70s and there were always "dirty old men" about.
We kids sniggered about it, even when one of them tried to put his hand up my friend's skirt.
It was all so low key and almost accepted.
It's a shame you couldnt speak to your parents when you were older and get their side. Sometimes as kids we dont get the full story.

I believe that this is coming back to haunt you now because your brain (?) knows you are in a position, strong enough, to deal with it now.

Thank you everyone. I think it's a combination of menopause, poor health and having four beautiful little grandchildren whom I adore beyond words, I fear for them too and it's brought all of this up for me.
I will ask for help.
Thank you all for your kindness.