Terrified of being home alone

[Sixcatsandcounting]

DP & I been together 2.5years and lived together most of that. Moved into current house almost 1.5years ago. No children yet (we plan to start trying soon if things go to plan). He works full time, I suffer with depression and so am on ESA so home all the time. DP has gone on a training course for work and doesn’t come back until Friday night.
I just feel so lonely and like I don’t know what to do with myself. I know I can still speak to him but being in the house on my own (albeit with plenty of pets) scares me half to death and I just feel very isolated knowing he isn’t coming home at night and I will be sleeping alone etc. Our house got broken into about a year ago and I’m terrified something like that will happen while he’s gone and I won’t know what to do.
I know I’m being irrational but I don’t really have anyone to talk to and I can’t concentrate on the television because I’m worried if something happens I won’t hear it! How can I think I can have a baby when I am reacting like this when DP is away?
Not sure what I’m expecting here as I know I’m being ridiculous but can’t help the fear anyway!

You're not being ridiculous at all, if anything you sound anxious! Being broken into must have been terrifying so no wonder you feel on edge, have you spoken to your GP about it? They may be able to help.

I have anxiety and we moved into this house this year. Ever since we've lived here I've had this overwhelming feeling we're going to be burgled. Never happened to us before, and I never felt like this where we used to live. Throughout the day I have to check all the doors are locked, and once everyone else is asleep, the smallest of sounds has me on edge. So you're not alone and it's an awful feeling to have, be kind to yourself

OP I used to feel the way you do. I remember being actually sick with panic when my husband had to go away for work, and I sat up all night with all the lights on, terrified. I don't even know what I was terrified of.

It was only much later when I sought treatment for anxiety that these feelings went away and I realised that what I had thought was normal was very far from being normal.

I am exactly the same OP, my DH travels a lot and is away for about 10 days throughout the month. I am awful at been alone.

I make sure to slip into conversations with my neighbour that I am alone for a few days. We just bought smart bulbs for downstairs so if I hear a noise I can switch them on downstairs through an app, I figure if anyone is lurking around the house seeing a light flick on would deter them. I dread it too, the few days leading up to him leaving I am sick with worry.

I also suffer terribly with nighterrors and have been known to bundle DS out of bed whilst still asleep, so I worry I will fall down the stairs with him. Please don’t feel silly, it’s an awful feeling being scared. Is there anyone you can have stay over? I usually ask friends if they want to stay a couple of nights or call my sister at a stupid hour until I fall asleep.

I have this anxiety.
We installed an alarm as well as front and rear surveillance cameras as deterrents which make me feel so much better.

I'm exactly the same. I know it's irrational but can't help it. DP is having to work away more and I literally sit up all night 😒

This might not be a practical solution as you might not have the space for one, but could you get a dog?

It would be company for you, would alert you the presence of someone at your house, and would scare away any intruders.

We have a small, gentle girl Labrador who would hurt a fly, but her bark when someone approaches the house sounds way worse than her character suggests.