To feel a little lost

[Mto2]

Short back story: Following the birth of my two DC I suffered very badly from PND, which over the years has lingered as depression. I have had a really crap few years, family illness, bereavement, major money and business issues which have been major factors in this but I have spent the last six months or so working on my MH and am starting to feel a bit like the old me.

However I have realised I have absoloutely no hobbies, interests or just generally anything for me. I work part time at home for my family's business (everyone else works at their homes) so I can go days on end at home alone which I know doesn't help my MH so feel it is really important I find something to do or join in with but everytime I try to think of things to try my mind goes blank and I feel like the most boring person on earth.

So AIBU on myself to feel so odd and lost like this or has anyone else been through this and come out the other side and has any hobby or interest suggestions that might help? 💐

I can’t remember who said it but basically it is when we can truly know who we are, gives us the right time for change. You sound like you are ready for a change. What interests did you have before you had children? Or is there the opportunity to volunteer at your children’s school?

Thank you so much for response, you are right, I really do feel ready for change. But I honestly feel like I can't remember what I used to do pre DC. I was only 26 and had a full on job with 2 hour a day commute when I had DC1 so I mainly spent my time working and socialising before having them. I did used to enjoy running but after DC I have a few issues with my bladder so that's out of the window at the mo. Hopefully just knowing I need a change will be the first step in finding something.

You aren't alone going through this. I've found music to be incredibly helpful in switching my brain back on. I'm no longer just functioning and have rediscovered other old interests.
I also do things like go to websites such as Project Gutenberg, Flickr and Wikipedia & look at 3 random things.

www.gutenberg.org/

You can go to Reddit and get them to show you a random Reddit sub, most of them are of no interest but every so often you find one thats interesting.
This is Reddit front page. Right at the top of the page in the grey bar the links say All - Random. Click Random to see where you end up.
www.reddit.com/

Yoga is great for my mental abd physical health

Also interesting podcasts whilst doing boring house stuff helps

Meditation is great too

Google hobby ideas and see if anything takes your fancy. Join groups or pages on Facebook maybe? Do you have any friends you can socialise with or become a part of their hobby? Something sporty is always a good one as a release of stresses and a way to meet new people.

I would really recommend running, something about being in the fresh air that really gives you some headspace, lots of local groups are about. I've made some great new friends and have surprised myself how much I enjoy it.

Probably you need to start 'ruling things out' that you really don't fancy, or that don't fit in with rest of your life, and start from there.

Are you looking to study ? (I'm guessing probably something outside your home, as you work at home)
Are you looking to exercise? (In the widest possible way - from rambling to dancing to pilates to fencing, etc.,etc.)
Are you looking to do something with other adults / meet new friends (and this can cross over with things like rambling or dancing or choir)
Do you want to use skills you have (music? being treasurer for something? volunteering?
Or learn new skills ?
Do something with your dc, or a bit of 'me time' t be by yourself ? Or to do something with your dh ?

I know how you feel. I'm the same.
I have taken up a new hobby - a musical instrument - but we play as a group so it's social too. I look forward to that evening but the rest of the week I'm still lonely and feeling rather lost. A few days a week I see people at toddler groups and we make small talk but it really is just bland small talk, I've not met anyone that I feel I click with. No one has ever asked for my number or suggested a coffee or playdate so I guess they feel the same.