Scared and guilty

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Iloveanimals · 04/01/2018 07:28

I'm ill. Have been off and on for months. Medical condition which causes pain and discomfort. Been on medication for a while but suddenly relapsed today. I had a very very mild panic attack today right before dh went to work. I was scared as I woke up in pain and knew I'd need to go to the doctor again
I didn't want to be left alone and now dh has had to take emergency holiday. I feel guilty he's has to have time off for me and feel like I let him down with my health 😔 I'm all over the place at the moment. Probably posting in the wrong place but feel so alone. Please be nice. I feel bad enough already.

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Pickleypickles · 04/01/2018 07:33

I think you are clearly in a bad place, not just with pain, be nice to yourself OP and honest woth the doctor about how you feel.
Is DH pissed off? If hes not i really wouldnt give it a second thoight its happened now, if he is then is it too late for him to go in now maybe or after lunch? If thats not possible hes your husband and should be able to sacrafice a day over something silly for you once in a blue moon so still domt beat yourself up

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Iloveanimals · 04/01/2018 07:34

Dh is really lovely and isn't annoyed one bit. I just feel guilty about it. Hate being ill for so long and just want to get well. But thanks for the kind words.

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Festivecheeseandcrackers · 04/01/2018 07:36

I have similar - a condition that flares up occasionally and my husband has had to take time off because I get quite panicky about it now and also because I find it difficult to care for my son when it flares up. I also get more and more anxious anticipating a flare up, especially if I'm alone with my son as it leaves me absolutely stuck.

It's horrible and the guilt his horrible. Rationally you know you can't help it but it doesn't make you feel any better.

Please be kind to yourself.

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Iloveanimals · 04/01/2018 07:37

Festive that's so helpful, thank you.

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DutifulDaughterWifeMother · 04/01/2018 07:40

Hi, I also suffer with something similar pls be kind to yourself. If your husband couldn’t of stayed he wouldn’t of but the fact he has shows he loves you and you are important. Take one day at a time & remember tomorrow is a new day. Xx

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Iloveanimals · 04/01/2018 07:46

Thank you dutiful. It's so hard but yes tomorrow is a new day and I know one day I will be well

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DutifulDaughterWifeMother · 04/01/2018 13:48

Stay positive you will find that, that will help you also when you have a bad day. I’m here if you need me. X

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