To want to curl up into a ball

[Cosmic123]

I'm not a fan of Christmas at the best of times but this year is really taking the piss.

I've been diagnosed with a bug and prescribed antiobiotics. The doctor herself said I might want to start them after Xmas because they may cause diareah.

I suffer from severe health anxiety so I've mostly spent the past two days resisting the urge to consult "dr google" or seek reassurance from any and everyone.

I feel absolutely hideous. I've barely ate anything because I have such bad acid reflux and nausea. Now to add insult to injury my period has started two days early and is giving me awful cramps and making me feel even more nauseous.

I'm meant to be going out for a meal with my partner's family. I just feel so shit with anxiety and these horrible physical symptoms. I'm so annoyed because if it wasn't for Christmas I would have started the antibiotics yesterday.

I don't want to ruin Christmas for my lovely 11 year old who is so excited but I am panicking about how I'm going to get through tomorrow. I don't want to go but I suspect if I stay here alone I will feel hideously guilty and sit here alone going out of my mind with anxiety.

I could really cry if I had the energy.

Oh no, so sorry to hear you're feeling so unwell.

You'll make it through tomorrow. If you have an infection then of course you're not going to want to go- but you probably should. If you let them know you're not feeling at all well, I'm sure they'll understand. And don't worry about not being able to eat much, just pick at whatever it's you feel like. There is no pressure.

Maybe try and eat something plain like some toast, and then you can curl up in a ball and try and get some rest!

Anxiety sucks

Hi, Sounds like you’re having a shitty time, just wanted to say you’re not alone with the anxiety stuff. My way of getting through it is to breath, take myself away from all the craziness and distract myself. That probably isn’t helpful! I don’t know what else I can say but just to let you know you’re not alone xxx

Tbh I'd take the meds and see how you feel.

I have an 11yo too and I know that he'd be miserable if he thought I was sitting around feeling unwell and generally shitty for the sake of 1 day. There's plenty more days to share his excitement!

Try to stop stressing and relax, hope you feel better and have a nice Christmas regardless :)

The distraction will be helpful, spending time with other people. And I'm sure you wouldn't want to miss your DC's excitement!

I hope you feel better soon

How's your day been OP?

Thank you so so much everyone. I can't even put into words how comforting your kind words were.

I did go in the end and I'm so glad I took your advice. I feel a lot less nauseous (touch wood) and I'm ready to blanket bomb my poor gut bacteria tomorrow.

I didn't eat much but it was a good distraction. I woke up at 4am worrying but it was lovely to see my daughters face when she opened her presents.

I cannot thank you enough xxxxxx

Yay so glad you've had a better day.

Antibiotics tomorrow so you can start getting over the infection! And just because they may cause diarrhoea, doesn't mean they will for you. The likelihood is you won't have any side effects.

Hopefully you'll have a peaceful sleep tonight, and I'm so glad to hear you're feeling much more positive