To ask if you know what's wrong with me?

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Firstly- I have been to the GP already. I know that I have something going on emotionally but I can't work out what it is or why.

The GP started talking about anxiety and I dismissed it as I don't feel ready to talk about it. I'm not sure why- perhaps the stigma attached to mental health issues it's me off sharing how I'm feeling with people in RL?

My symptoms are...
constant nausea
Increased heart palpitations
Headaches
Disturbed vision
Trembling hands
Emotional
I could sleep forever
Loss of appetite
Loss of interest in pretty much anything really.
Everything just feels a bit numb- like I'm not me anymore.

My DP has noticed and I think he's mentioned it to his DM as she sat me down and asked if I thought I may be depressed. Luckily someone interrupted by walking in to the room we were in so I didn't have to say anything and she hasn't mentioned again since.

I have this fear of talking about it. I have 2 DC and worry that they will think I can't take care of them when I'm feeling like this. I can and they are absolutely fine but everything seems like such a chore at the moment. Even things like getting out of bed, getting dressed etc.

I feel like I struggle to get through each day and am not enjoying anything anymore. I know that I'm probably depressed and I need to get myself better but I don't know how. When I'm out and about I'm ok it's just getting myself up and out. I feel sick when I'm walking to work or going to do the food shop because I don't want to be doing it but I'm ok once I'm there. I have these dark moments when I'm by myself. I feel like I need some time off work to get myself better but would worry about going back once I've been off. I'm worried people will talk about me.

Any ideas what's going on with me? Any self help recommendations? Should I take some time off or will it make things worse when I have to go back? I don't know what to do for the best. I want to get better.

when I had similar issues, my iron and ferritin were very low. iron supplements sorted it.

Did the GP run any blood tests? if not I would go back to GP to rule out things with iron, vit D, B12, thyroid etc

I felt many of your symptoms for sometime OP - years in fact. I couldn't figure out why I couldn't shake off the "depression" - but I functioned OK when I had to (kids, work etc).

I was having a reaction to the Mirena coil and everything improved remarkably in the weeks after having it removed. 14 months on I can't tell you what a relief it is to feel like myself again - to feel "normal".

Check your hormonal contraceptive perhaps?

Could you be pregnant? I could have written your symptoms when I was pregnant with DS during my first trimester. I developed a couple of deficiencies which made everything worse, especially the numbness. Definitely go back to your GP

Bloods - Vitamin D, calcium, parathyoid (PTH). Get the numbers, not just "in range".

I'm not a medical person.
My initial thought was anxiety. 2nd thing I thought thyroid or anaemia or deficiency in B vits.
The symptoms do sound like menopause or depression.

You have exactly the same symptoms that I had a few years ago. I lost about 2 stone in weight, trembling, either sleeping for 20 hours straight or unable to sleep at all.
I was tested for thyroid, liver, kidneys, HIV, and about 12 things.
No doctor could say what was wrong, I started having panic attacks on the street which meant o thought I would vomit or faint so I started staying in all the time
It was the worst of times.

Looking back I now realise I was just so stressed from the vile and violent, abuse I was constantly living in fear of that I was having a breakdown. Things improved once I got rid of my stress trigger.

Something seems to be troubling you, if you know that is not the case, just ignore me, I was only trying to say your symptoms are the same as mine were.

Hormones - have you changed your contraception recently?
Please get them to consider all tests.
Hope you get it sorted soon.

Sounds like depression and the physical manifestations of anxiety, especially the part about not enjoying anything

Sounds like B12 deficiency.

Are you a vegetarian?

You have a choice OP, carry on and wait for this feeling to consume you or regain some control by firstly admitting to yourself, what you are feeling (this is the hardest part), going to the doctor and telling them exactly what you have told us and then taking what you have been prescribed and wait to feel better.

Take time out / off work, take time to feel like you, sleep, eat and take cues from your body/mind. Do what it will allow you to do.

I've been here, I think I kept a lid on it for 15+ years, and then one day it smacked me in the face and I just physically could not move. I was constantly strong for family and friends, I forgot about myself and my needs - it's easily done.

I hope you feel better and more like yourself soon.

Ps, I forgot to mention, I only realised the extend of my health issues when they became physical, ie dizziness, pain radiating through my arms and into my chest. I thought I was having a heart attack.

I have both depression and anxiety.
The first key to getting any better is acceptance.
There really is nothing to ashamed of, that is just negative thinking which comes along with depression/anxiety.

I have 4 children and i was scared to admit i found it difficult.
Now as soon as i feel my mood dipping i am.at my GP asking for support.
I currently have a counsellor.
I also have had involvement with SS throughout the years (due to abusive relationships not MH) and they have been nothing but supportive and understanding of my MH. It has never been a cause for concern even when i have been extremely low.

It is a very very common illness. Please dont feel ashamed.

I think it sounds like B12 deficiency as well BUT you need to see your GP and discuss it all

Depression is an illness - a very common one - and one for which medication is available - please treat it as such and discuss that as well

good luck op x

I was wondering about Iron levels like chocolate? I struggle with Anxiety and mild depression and always feel a lot worse when my iron levels are down

You need to stop asking strangers on the internet and go back to the doctors.
I had post natal depression and I recognise most of your symptoms. Even if it's not that you need to go back and let the doctor treat you.
No one is going to take away your children. Quite the reverse, you have to do a lot more than have an illness to have SS step in.
Get signed off work for a couple of weeks, have a rest and if they offer medication try it and see. Also sign up for any talking therapy they can offer. It can be easier talking to a counsellor because they won't get upset by the things you say.
Please OP go back to the doctor and get some treatment. The sooner you nip it in the bud the better. It won't get easier if you wait.

It's really unlikely that you have anything except depression and anxiety. What you describe is textbook stuff really.

Give the medication a chance to work. If it works, then you've ruled out a lot of other (less likely) things that might be wrong.

You need to stop asking strangers on the internet and go back to the doctors.
Well I had many of those symptoms and all the GP wanted to do was give me anti-D's (which I didn't want) and send me for some counselling (which didn't help).

They didn't even ASK about hormonal contraceptives and possible side effects - eventually I sorted that out for myself.

Low b12, or vitamin d deficiency. How is your diet? I'd also support the diabetes check as unstable blood sugars can send mood haywire and links in with the disturbed vision. You need to go back to your GP.