To ask for hand hold

[AmiU]

I've posted about my situation once before but I'm in a very tricky place. I'm a SAHM mum from another country with an awful DH and realistically no options for leaving.

I can't talk to anyone in real life for support but I'm so upset today.

My Dh and I were speaking to my sister on Skype this morning and he decided he didn't like her tone and told her to 'fuck off'. The whole day has now been an ordeal of screaming, shouting, threatening etc.

He pulled down entire cupboards and tipped out all the contents for me to clean. Has taken my passport and keeps threatening to tear it up. We're going away on Tuesday and he unzipped the packed suitcases and dumped everything on the floor, and told me to repackage it.

Now he keeps yelling at me to call up and yell at my sister, or else he will.

I have two little DC to consider and absolutely nowhere to go.

I know you'll all tell me to stand up for myself but I just have to tell someone sometimes.

Hope you’re doing ok today OP and that you’re thinking about what we’ve all been talking about

I’m also from a culture where it is unacceptable to leave AmiU but truly I got to the point where I was beyond caring about what others thought. It was hard to get the confidence and courage to leave (I wasted 23 years I’d my life until the thought of staying was worse than the thought of going). My biggest regret are those wasted years when life could have been so different.

Please try hard to put yourself and your children first . Please consider contacting woman’s aid or an organisation for women suffering from domestic violence within your culture. They should be able to help you get an action plan together and support you. You deserve so much more than this man. And lastly please please try not to feel ashamed or bad in any way. You truly aren’t.