We had problems before but now
I can’t even find the emotional energy to work out what’s going wrong between us now that I’m a week away from having our second baby, my first it is becoming clear has asd. I just can’t take his moodiness and his lack of connection with me and his using the way I talk to him as an excuse to be moody and withholding. I hate arguing around my child and whilst my child is in another room. It’s too hard. Even now he’s trying to help me now he realises finally how hard it’s been - he helps but he’s not giving i.y.s.w.i.m. After a day hearing the same story recited about 50 times ( echolalia) and just the claustrophobia of being pregnant and pretty much trapped in the house and all the drudgery of chores and high pitched screaming and asking husband to help with things but no real warmth between us I feel desperate. I have no energy for him
and I think he’s cruel to be so argumentative with me. I’m terrified of the future both with him and without him. There is no break either, we have no family nearby, we have no friends in terms of being invited anywhere, no one to babysit. It just feels too hard. I feel desperate.