I have a blood test in a couple of hours and my anxiety is really kicking in. I know it's relatively painless and my fear is irrational but I can't help it.
When I was 13 I was given the BCG jab which really fucking hurt. It was very traumatic as I saw my friend having it first and she burst into tears. I then refused to have it and escaped from the hall. I was the last pupil of 230 odd children to have it, it took two teachers to drag me back to the hall and 3 to hold me still to have it.
I think this is what has triggered my phobia.
AIBU to think that a) this should never have happened. I should not have been restrained and forced to have it and b) at 13 my wish not to be vaccinated should of been my choice.
Since the above I've done everything I can to avoid needles. I've not had the HP vaccine, whooping cough etc. I had a blood test when pregnant but it took 3 cancelled appointment and DP to come with me 