I lost my job several months ago and after initially feeling relief, am now feeling awful. I’m very lucky (hence the AIBU tag) as we can survive on one income and I got a good redundacy package. I have two small DCs, early school years so freedom for six hours a day (except for hols!) I thought I would love this quality time with them but am secretly resenting them and being a SAHM. It was a very fast paced, exciting job that I lost, I was rarely home before bedtime. I knew it was a young person’s game though and would have to end eventually. All other jobs out there look so dull in comparison. I hate being at home but the few times I have reconnected with industry people, I feel as though I have nothing interesting to say anymore. I put off having children as I knew it would kill my career. I was right but now I am old and directionless and wake up feeling sick. It’s everything I worked for since leaving uni. I wouldn’t give up my babies for anything so feel very guilty even moaning when so many have it much tougher? My job was not perfect and I was undervalued but how do I stop this complete loss of confidence? There is no chance of going back in. It feel like grief which seems totally OTT.