Must have been a blue moon because dh took me out for dinner this evening to a cool and trendy music / dinner venue completely unexpectedly. We NEVER go out. I was pathetically thrilled. I thought perhaps this was the start of something new. I was conscious not dk do anything to fuck it up. All is going well when he asks me what I thought about coming here on a double date with him and an ex Internet date of his hat he has kept in touch with. He says it's because he thinks her dh is suspicious of him and he wants him not to worry. He also says hat it's because he wants the ex to offer him some tickets for next football season. What am I supposed to Think? It literally killed the evening. We're on our way home now in stony silence. I'd like to think he's just a well meaning fuckwit. But I the other hand I can't help but think there's no smoke without fire. Why on earth bring this up when we're out for a rare evening together? I'm feeling very sad. If I'm totally misreading everything please be kind. I suffer with anxiety and this summer had a breakdown. X