I'll try and keep this as brief as possible, but apologies if it's a ramble.
I've been on MN for years, but have recently changed accounts; obligatory 'proof' - naice ham, cutted up pear, cancel the cheque.
In the past few weeks I have had to force DD (nearly 3) into her pram, three times. Once was because she was restless and disruptive (climbing over the back of benches, lying on the floor, banging glasses off the table), in a busy cafe while we were waiting for our lunch to arrive, that I told her we would have to leave if she didn't sit down. I had offered her a banana while we waited for her lunch, so I don't think she was starving hungry. She also had a drink. She kept misbehaving and I felt I had to folllw through with the punishment and scooped her up and walked home, where we had lunch.
The second time, was when we had to leave the beach where she was paddling, fully clothed. I went to take her hand to help her out of the sea, she ran off laughing and fell flat on her face in the sea. I picked her up, but she still thought this was hilarious and ran off again, so I scooped her up and put her in her pram. No mean feat. I am pregnant, she is strong and quite big for her age and was in an utter rage at having to leave. Also, she was probably uncomfortable being soaked through. I did take off as much of her wet clothes as I could and wrapped her up in my jacket and jumper, but she was still very upset.
Then this afternoon, we had to go and pick up a prescription at the doctors. DD wanted to walk there, which we did, but I also took the pram in case we needed it. I can't really carry her now if she gets tired due to pregnancy. I told her before we left the house that she must hold my hand as there are busy roads on the way. She said she understood, but then played up the whole way there; swinging off my arm, letting go of my hand and running off, lying on the pavement, picking up bits of god knows what from the ground and trying to eat random plants and berries. Eventually we got to the doctors and pharmacists. When we were ready to leave, I asked her if she wanted to walk home, or go in the pram. She said she wanted to walk, so I reiterated that she had to hold my hand and walk properly or she would have to go in the pram. She then played up again the whole way. I eventually said that was enough and she had to get in her pram. I scooped her up and spent the next ten to fifteen minutes trying to get her in the pram while she screamed, threw things, pushed over the pram, (very busy road, so this was dangerous), pulled the hood off the pram, climbed out of the pram and repeat. It was awful and I felt like crying myself. Eventually I got her in and put peppa pig on my phone which seemed to keep her in there for the rest of the journey home, though she was still crying while watching it. We got home and she was suddenly fine.
I feel like I've massively fucked up and I can't pinpoint why. Hence me posting on aibu! Help please.