Sorry about this AIBU - just feel a bit frustrated at myself, and wanted to get it off my chest.
I had a meeting earlier with a school headteacher about a governor position with them, after applying for governor roles and being suggested this position by SGOSS (the organisation that deals with recruiting school governors).
In preparation for the meeting, I'd read the school website and done quite a bit of research the school. I'd anticipated the meeting to be fairly formal, similar to a job interview situation, but I feel like I went in and didn't really do myself justice. I got really nervous, as I wanted to do well and to show I was right for the role, but I feel a bit deflated to be honest.
I just keep thinking that maybe the headteacher thought before meeting me that I may be an okay for the committee, but then after meeting me, changed their mind. Obviously, that's okay, but it's knocked my confidence a bit. (I may be being U here, as I tend to overanalyse and overthink things quite a lot!!)
The headteacher has said that they'll be in touch by email after today, and I feel like this might be a 'enjoyed meeting you but you're not right for us right now' comment.
AIBU?