I don't want to help

[PringlesPirate]

I think I am BU but I want to hear from you lot.

I am preparing my flameproof knickers.

I have recently just completed a role at work. I found it very challenging and most of the people at work unsupportive. I am still waiting to find out if I have passed the exams for the role.

But an additional role is available. Same role. Same responsibilities. Same hoops to pass through.
Some colleague at work are applying, there are fairly rigorous interview. Some colleagues have asked me for help and others haven't. I feel a bit uncomfortable and also a bit put out by being asked for help. I did all my own work in preparation.
I've replied in an untimely fashionto messages (bearing in mind it is a weekend and I've been busy).

I guess I feel uncomfortable because it's not fair on the others I'm not helping. And I feel put out because I didn't ask for help. I think sometimes you need to show your own initiative.

However, depending on who gets this future role, WIBU to offer limited help?
I do actually think I am being unreasonable here. It is a challenging role. It's been a very challenging year for me so far, and I'm not fully out the other side yet. But I also think a guide in the right director wouldn't go amiss.
AIBU and what should I do?

The most important person in your life should be you. I don't mean that you should be a selfish smuck but you need to love yourself. People who are people pleasers are generally unhappy.
You have had a tough year so you need TLC.
So listen to yourself and your inner voice, because the answer will be within.
Do you want to help? If the answer is 'no'...then don't.
When we do things for someone else, which really isn't in our best interest, we know, because it disturbs us. This situation is disturbing you.....so take your own advice.

Maybe asking you is part of them using their initiative. Don't help if you don't have the time, but I think it could reflect badly on you if you just choose not to help.

I feel like them asking me is asking for reassurance that they're doing the right thing. I am not confident in advising them (because I'm not sure I've passed etc). I don't want them to take what I've said as read either. I guess I don't want the blame if they don't get the post. And then I don't want to hold their hand if they get it either.

I would say that several people have asked and that since you are super busy right now and cannot offer to help everyone then it is fairest to decline all help other than, possibly the odd quick question.

YANBU.