I was so happy to get a fixed term contract as a social worker. It fixed term but there's the need for me in the team so if I'm good it is going to be made permanent.
I knew I needed to be good so made a huge effort as soon as I started and wanted to give a really good impression.
I've been in the job 6 weeks and I've held my own caseload for 4 weeks. I feel this was far too early as I came from a different team and didn't know how the processes worked.
I've had no training. I did shadow a few senior social workers but only did 5 visits before being given my caseload.
I have to ask other stafff members how to do EVERYTHING.
I don't know if I'm incompetent, nervous, lacking in confidence or something else but I feel I never know what to do with something and also have to ask. Because of this I'm slow and my work is behind. I work hard. I come in early each day and finish late and never seem to stop but my work is still behind.
I feel there's not enough hours in the day to work to the level required which in my previous job as a social worker I really excelled.
This team has a high turnover and I am looking for other jobs.
I think one of my major issues is our senior social worker. She's controlling and I would say bullying. She only ever tells me what's wrong. Doesn't give praise. Micro manages. Is cold and generally since starting my job I've felt she has affected my confidence massively. She doesn't allow you to be in control of your own work you feel she is controlling it all and you don't dare make mistakes. It creates a feeling of complete reliance on her. It's awful. I know three people who have told me they have left because of her so I'm not the only one.
There is one team but separated into two location. We have a manager who manages both locations. I was thinking of asking to go to the other location where this senior doesn't work.
At the moment I am so stressed at work I feel ill and I'm usually such a happy person. I genuinely think it's the senior and lack of support and training (very common in social work). I don't want to hand my notice in only to have no other option.
I can't stay in this job. This was my dream job but I'm miserable. Absolutely miserable. I really hope it's not my competence that's the problem but I feel I have to try a different team before moving.
I really like my actual manager (my senior has taken upon herself to act as my manager) and feel she would be supportive.
I'm so stressed about this it's affecting my home life. I think of nothing else and when I'm at work I don't stop. I don't even have lunch there's no time!
I work in Adults services.